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You and I

Secondhand Serenade - You and I

I'm feeling distracted
And likewise attracted
To all the things that you let me know
To all the things that you can't let go

You're waiting for friction
The empty addiction
Is forcing me to intervene
Let's break out of this scene

I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I

You and I
I watch you take over
I'll give you this offer
Take my hand and we will run away
Leave behind our past to stay
Decaying till its rotten
We'll have long forgotten
The memories that will haunt your heart

Let's tear this town apart
I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I

We watched the world go by
(But if it's you and I)
Then we will never die
(No we can never die)
We watch the world go by
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But if it's you and I
Then we will never die

I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I
I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I...

of mutations of the mind.

You see how ironic people can be. When you think you have known a person all your life, it turns out you never did. How different people can be when you change the situation...when you put them in a place outside their comfort zone. They will undergo the mutation of their minds: they change their opinions, views and feelings. They become turmoiled with their insecurities or sometimes...they may just suck it all up and pretend to be stronger.

As it was Valentine's Day yesterday, I've seen a lot of these "mutations" of the mind and feelings when it comes to love. Not that I won't confess that some of these mutations, I have experienced myself through out the past few weeks. I've become a very vulnerable person due to this THING called love.

Yes, he was nice. He treated me as dearly as he could. No one ever did that. I admitted I was lonely and desperate at some times, and I tend to make mistakes in the past. It was really a tough thing for me to accept the fact that I am in love. Part of me feels that this is just purely, lust. That I will be in pain if I am in love. Love hurts, event hough it's good or bad.

Part of me speaks of being bored. I am EASILY bored. Turns out boredom is not his nature. We talk alike, we think alike. We even finish each other's sentences. That's the genius of it all. This is when I say the bottomline conclusion that I have finally opened my heart for him. This is my MUTATION of the mind and heart.

"You see how ironic people can be. When you think you have known a person all your life, it turns out you never did. How different people can be when you change the situation...when you put them in a place outside their comfort zone..."

I am now in my comfort zone. I am home.

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Hantu Raya

Ahh…it’s that time of the year again. I can already taste the liveliness and the intensity of the upcoming war, duel, feud, confrontation or whatever you might call it that will soon happen. Hari Raya Aidilfitri is the best time to observe World Wrestling Championship or International Debate Competition. Titles like “Best Mulut Celupar” or “Kaki Merajuk No. 1” or “Manusia Paling Pelokek/Kedekut” will be awarded on this eventful day. It’s funny because this is MY TYPE OF HARI RAYAs that I’ve been experiencing since I know the meaning of the word “family”. No, I’m not trying to get some attention from Rumah Kebajikan Masyarakat or United Nations or UNICEF or whatever. I just feel that I need to write this down as a proof of my living.

My family, even how much I love them, is EGOISTICAL MONSTERS. We never take blame for any of our actions, we never say sorry, we are always the right ones and we only care for our own feelings. I’m not saying that my family consists of bad people. I was raised with having all that I need. No, I don’t think that’s the problem. That’s not the point I want to say here.

During Hari Raya, I think this is the best time to express our love and respect between each family members. Being the “egoistical monsters” that we are, my family tend to look through everybody’s faults. Of course lah, during raya we have been under one roof at nenek’s place, right? So, things like “Hei anak kau tak reti berhenti nangis ke orang nak relax time raya pun tak boleh”..or “Hoi kau ni tak reti nak tolong mak kat dapur ke asyik tidor je” and even “EEhhh….makcik tu gile kedekut kan sampai cucu sedara dia pun dia tak bagi duit raya”..will lead to the World Wresting Championship, or rather, World Tampar-Menampar Championship that I’ve mentioned above.

Well, I don’t want to elaborate on the sporting events. It’s better if you come and see for yourself. Even today, on the eve of Aidilfitri, there has been a “minor event” happening just now.

What I feel about it? I feel DISGUSTED. It’s an insult to Hari Raya Aidilfitri and also to the family system. Most of the time, all these fights happened because everyone have MULUT YANG JAHAT and ZERO TOLERANCE on everyone else. It’s kind of sad that even how much educated you are, plus being a Muslim, we all still cannot control our emotional craziness and anger. I hope I won’t create the same mistake and I also hope my future generation will learn from our past mistakes.

LOVE and RESPECT your family. It’s not all about YOU. Human relationships are all about GIVE & TAKE. It’s not about PERFECTION. When we learn how to tolerate each others’ weaknesses, that is when we truly can ACCEPT & LOVE to the fullest.

Selayangku Sayang

Pn. Ila: "Pn, Hospital Sg. Buloh takde kekosongan lah. Boleh pilih hospital lain tak?"

Me: "Err...Hospital Selayang boleh tak?"

Pn. Ila: "OK. Hospital Selayang ye...kejap saya prepare surat untuk Pn. lapor diri. Bila boleh lapor diri kat hospital?"

Me: "Minggu depan boleh Puan? 23hb Ogos.

Pn. Ila: "OK"

It was as fast as the blink of an eye, FINALLY, I secured my job placement at Hospital Selayang. Thanks to some of my friends who updated their facebook status that relayed the information that the job placement is on our on choice of place and time of reporting of duty. Which is what I was waiting for all this time!! It's a pain in the a** to wait and wait and wait. I prefer if any authorities would simplify all the procedures and just give the damn job to me at my own accord!!

But, I'm not here to complain. I really really really am THANKFUL to God, especially and my family for all their support and doa' all this time. Alhamdulillah. Even though I haven't been on my very best image in front of my family, they still support me all the way.

A bit bout the adventure: I drove towards Selangor early Wednesday morning and went straight to pick up Jaja at her home in Seri Kembangan. Her house is BIG! and have lots of fun stuff in it (she got like a library of comics and cute ornaments around..gila2!). She got my KKM posting letter which was needed for reporting of duty. Then, together, we went to JKN Selangor, which is in Shah Alam, and when we reached there, we talked to the officers and ended up getting the placement that we requested for.

Jaja asked for Hospital Serdang and I asked for Hospital Selayang. I requested to start working next Monday while my friend wants to work later.

Well, the rest are history. I'll be working next Monday.

I've been trying to find an apartment for rent around Damansara Damai which is like 11km from my working place. So, I'm planning to go meet some landlords this Sunday with my uncle. In the meantime, I'm going to have to settle living with my Uncle's family which is 1 hour drive from my working place. Well, at least it's just temporary.

Good luck Aisyah!

What I Had for Buka Puasa

Today, I went to Telok Mas Bazar Ramadhan with Mama & Azman. Luckily, not many people are around and it was easier for us to walk around. So, we bought some...err...i mean, A LOT of food for buka puasa.

Here's what we had today:

Kuih Lopes & Pulut Panggang

Roti John

Ayam Percik

Badak Berendam

...and we also had nasi kerabu, cencaru asam pedas, daging masak lemak cili api, daging masak kicap, air soya, air tebu and air teh 'o'.

BURP..!